It took me less than a week to get over it.
To be over that night when I played Spider Solitaire to divert my attention.
There are many things that I should be thankful for.
I learned who my true friends are. And those who really care.
And just like last year, I know the next academic year will be full of fun surprises for me.
Life is like a game. You have to take your chances.
I took mine.
And just like any other game, there are the ones who go home happy and some who don't.
I guess I belonged to the latter.
Maybe I had my time. And it was over.
I have no one to blame.
I do not really care anymore.
Maybe I should write the Specific Plan of Action of my own life.
Fix all the mistakes I have previously committed,
Before I take over in trying to fix others.
Find ways to be happy, contented and successful in the near future.
I'm done with this dream, this aspiration.
I have to accept that I am not for it, or some don't want me for it.
I'm over this.
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Remember that time when I said that life will never be the same for the both of us since that somebody left. Yeah, I have proven that right.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Thursday, March 17, 2011
The Notebook
And today I realize how much I miss you..
How you handled my emotions very well..
How you have called me before I go to sleep and the moment I wake up..
How you've assured me that everything will turn out fine..
How you've been there for me..
That was our closest moment..
But I can't mess up your life once again..
Nor become a part of it again, even as friends..
We are just so distant..
Not even that notebook made us speak to each other..
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So this is how it feels to be heart broken, twice..
Just give me a little time and I'll be back..
hopefully..
How you handled my emotions very well..
How you have called me before I go to sleep and the moment I wake up..
How you've assured me that everything will turn out fine..
How you've been there for me..
That was our closest moment..
But I can't mess up your life once again..
Nor become a part of it again, even as friends..
We are just so distant..
Not even that notebook made us speak to each other..
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So this is how it feels to be heart broken, twice..
Just give me a little time and I'll be back..
hopefully..
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Crying over spilled milk
It was that epic afternoon of March 17, 2010. I was (badly) influenced by Aries and Lawi to cut classes, go to the mall and watch a movie. I was in a vulnerable state then, having lost the elections for the position I was aspiring for ever since I was an applicant. The only consolation I had in my mind then was my love life. Since we both lost that election, at least we can have more time together for the next academic year, which apparently didn't happen. Then there came that epic moment, the source of laughter of some of my friends, that epic video.
To those who haven't figured out why I was crying over spilled milk (as the caption of the video stated), here is how I remember it.
While we were waiting for the movie, Remember Me to start, we opted to eat our lunch at Jollibee at the Annex of SM North EDSA. After eating, Aries got my phone, then he told me that he texted Gboi some profane words. I was vulnerable, thinking that my love life was the only thing that was in place then, I started crying, then there went the video. haha.
I won't forget that day for that was the afternoon they have convinced me to vie for VC for EdRes for the Sanlahi. A fall back for some but an opportunity for me. The following week, I ran against abstain and won without really knowing the responsibility I am getting into.
I remembered that night of the turn over with the previous Sec when we had some drinks then went Rockband while we were a little bit tipsy. Haha. Then upon arriving to my friend's house, I cried all night because of someone then I had allergies the following day. After my mind was back in place, I realized that this is it. That what I ran for is real.
I started almost from scratch. It's a good thing that my co-Sec were active for the past Sanlahi years and they guided me towards knowing and eventually loving the work that I have.
I was a complete stranger to everyone and to the post I am handling. But through time, I learned to love and enjoy what I am doing and I believe that I have done a really great job.
It's about time I have to bid goodbye. I haven't trained anybody. I do not know who will succeed me. But what I know is I've done my job well and it's time to turn over this great opportunity and post to someone who'll also eventually love it.
And to those 6 people I've worked with for the whole year, you know that I'll miss you. I've learned a lot from you and our experiences. We weren't that close as the previous secretariat members were, but I believe we were able to create a bond among ourselves. A bond that we will always remember when we reminisce our college life. :)
To those who haven't figured out why I was crying over spilled milk (as the caption of the video stated), here is how I remember it.
While we were waiting for the movie, Remember Me to start, we opted to eat our lunch at Jollibee at the Annex of SM North EDSA. After eating, Aries got my phone, then he told me that he texted Gboi some profane words. I was vulnerable, thinking that my love life was the only thing that was in place then, I started crying, then there went the video. haha.
I won't forget that day for that was the afternoon they have convinced me to vie for VC for EdRes for the Sanlahi. A fall back for some but an opportunity for me. The following week, I ran against abstain and won without really knowing the responsibility I am getting into.
I remembered that night of the turn over with the previous Sec when we had some drinks then went Rockband while we were a little bit tipsy. Haha. Then upon arriving to my friend's house, I cried all night because of someone then I had allergies the following day. After my mind was back in place, I realized that this is it. That what I ran for is real.
I started almost from scratch. It's a good thing that my co-Sec were active for the past Sanlahi years and they guided me towards knowing and eventually loving the work that I have.
I was a complete stranger to everyone and to the post I am handling. But through time, I learned to love and enjoy what I am doing and I believe that I have done a really great job.
It's about time I have to bid goodbye. I haven't trained anybody. I do not know who will succeed me. But what I know is I've done my job well and it's time to turn over this great opportunity and post to someone who'll also eventually love it.
And to those 6 people I've worked with for the whole year, you know that I'll miss you. I've learned a lot from you and our experiences. We weren't that close as the previous secretariat members were, but I believe we were able to create a bond among ourselves. A bond that we will always remember when we reminisce our college life. :)
