Tuesday, July 27, 2010
I caught a glimpse of a box under my cabinet,
A container full of stuffs and memories,
A box that was given with love that was not suppose to cease,
There are various things inside,
Each with a special meaning behind,
A Hannah Montana pen, a shirt, a small bag,
A rosary and a mind game to brag.
Contained is a baller that shouts I love him,
A material that testified a feeling so firm,
The proof of commitment that I once shared with him,
That we will be with each other through thick and thin.
Contained is a CD with a movie and a letter,
Words that I always read to make me feel better,
A movie that showed a number of pictures,
Accompanied by a song of the story we had together.
For a while, this container meant a lot to me,
The material evidence of our two year love story,
Now it is a mere box that I prefer not to see,
Hidden under my cabinet and buried in my memory.
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Played patintero,piko and jackstone during recess breaks,
Ran around the school premises because of 2 girls chasing us,
Comforted each other as we shared our family concerns,
Wore tanod-like vests during the press conferences,
Ate sugo during our Pautakan reviews sessions,
Teased my skin color and lack of taste,
Laughed at my fail moments,
Cried because of the guys who broke our hearts.
We did many things together, not just these things I have mentioned.
You were my opposite. You're pretty, full of confidence, stylish and courageous. You are frank and you stand and speak up for what you believe in. You're a bookworm. You're very sociable and outgoing. People love your uniqueness, your charm and your charisma.
I do not know how we got along very well. We even considered ourselves as best friends.
But time had brought us apart.
I do not know how and I do not know why we have allowed that to happen.
We missed so many happenings already.
And telling me to just stay this way when I'm ready to reach out again was really heartbreaking.
It's the hardest thing that I have to accept.
This is more difficult to handle than a break-up.
Because that's you.
You're special and I love you.
I know you are happy now with the people you hang out with and the guy you are with.
I'm also contented with the set of friends I have now. But I won't be pleading to you, I think what's important to me is to know that you are happy.
I just miss you very much.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
I remembered myself comparing the concept of walking in the rain with my experience as an officer before, that I have written for an English class. I'll quote, "Walking in the rain can be romantic. Two persons under the same umbrella indicate that they will be there for each other despite the harsh rain." Now you can call me corny or cheesy.
We walked and walked and walked,
Waiting and praying for the rain to pour,
We wanted to dance together as heaven sprinkles water,
Hopeless romantics as we truly are.
Liwanag ng lumulubog na araw kay sarap pagmasdan,
lalo na kapag nasisinagan ang iyong mukha.
Watching the sun as it slowly hides itself is something I wanted to do with a special someone. Well, sunsets happen everyday. But observing it with someone important to you can really make this experience extraordinary. Suddenly, you will begin to appreciate the blending of colors in the sky, the smell of the sea, the warmth of the ambiance. Lean your head towards that person. No words needed. It will be breathtaking.
As the time ticks and the sun will soon be away,
I'm sitting beside you with no words to say,
You're composing a poem as we end the day,
I'll be here for you, come what may.
Ayoko nang magsawa, hinding hindi magsasawa sa iyo
Kaya't wag magtataka, kung bakit ayaw kitang mawala.
Till death do us part says a couple during their wedding. I get touched everytime I see an old husband with his old wife still sweet to each other. The smiles in their lips show how much they have been contented and happy with the life they've spent together. I hope to find someone who I will share the rest of my life with. We will build a house in a vast lot. Have a car. We will have a family of our own. Raise children and have grandchildren. Then the children will have their own families and I will still have my husband with me, still sweet and romantic even if white hair dominated our scalps and the smoothness of our skin has already gone.
We promised ourselves to be together forever,
Fulfilling our own ambitions and pleasures,
Inspiring one another to strive and work harder,
Investing for our future life having each other.
Thursday, July 15, 2010
Life is full of what if’s. What if I had a different set of parents? What if I joined a different set of friends? What if I haven't met you? Will life still be as happy as it is today?
Some people believe in signs. They let these signs help them in decision making. A simple example to this is a common practice is tossing a coin. We associate a certain decision to the tail and another to the head. Should I talk to him? Should I court her? Should I apply in this type of job? Is this the right path to take? Is he the one? Remember what we do with the flowers we pick in our gardens? He loves me, he loves me not, he loves me.
Life is a series of decisions. I think that is more realistic to say. Every day in our lives we have to choose one thing over another. Sacrifice one for another.
One of my favorite fan pages in Facebook says "Kung tayo, tayo talaga." For some reason I actually believe it. I have even said it personally before to someone. But I guess we can't just let fate or destiny bring to people back together, that is if they still want to be together. Some actions must be done for this to happen. Decisions have to made as well.
Sometimes, I wish that there will be someone to invent a machine or contraption that will determine whether or not this person is already “the one” or not. This is to avoid any heartache to happen, no more suicides due to love quarrels, no more emo people in this world. But no, I do not think that is possible. Even relationships that are only ended by death undergo these obstacles and these problems make the couple stronger. This applies not only on romantic relationships but also in friendships and family relationships. Each elimination round we take in this search for the right one is a risk that should be taken. Every yes and no provides a different set of possibilities and of new endeavors.
Whatever fate, destiny or serendipity talk about, everything that happens within us are products of decisions made by only one person, our own self. There is nobody else to blame, not even God. The coincidences we encounter are also results of different risks we choose to take, no matter how small or big they are.